I started Meh Mom Blog to help other parents feel less alone on their parenting journey.
For me, becoming a mother was isolating. Not many of my friends had kids, and even though I found my village the transition was a difficult one for me to make. It was so shocking to me how difficult it was, because I have been around babies and kids most of my life. I had younger family members who were always around, I babysat and worked in daycares, caring for children was not a new concept for me.
I felt confused because we tried to get pregnant and had a few miscarriages on that journey, so here I was with this tiny miracle baby yet instead of feeling happy I was just overcome with fear and dread. I know this isn’t everyone’s journey, but I know I know I’m not the only person who feels this way, and I didn’t feel like I had anyone I could talk to about it.
It took almost a year for me to get diagnosed and get into treatment for my postpartum anxiety (postpartum OCD to be exact). In that time being a mother became a nightmare for me. I had stopped sleeping and refused to be alone or leave anyone alone with Little Bug by the time I finally found the help I needed.
I still struggle. Not daily sometimes not even for weeks, but occasionally, I’ll forget my medicine or the stars align just right, and I can’t see the joy in having such a curious little girl. Instead I feel afraid for her to trip and hit her head, or fall out of a window, or just that I’m completely failing her and ruining her life. One of the ways I work to keep those false intrusive thoughts at bay is to find the humor and joy in our everyday, and when I can’t do that I have resources and a village to help me.
It was so difficult for me to find things to help me wade through my anxieties, and to help those around me understand what I was going through. I want Meh Mom Blog to be a place for light heartedness, understanding, and have resources for parents who are struggling and feeling alone right now.
If you’re looking for help, or more resources I strongly recommend Postpartum Support International.