Why It All Started.

I started Meh Mom Blog to help other parents feel less alone on their parenting journey.

For me, becoming a mother was isolating. Not many of my friends had kids, and even though I found my village the transition was a difficult one for me to make. It was so shocking to me how difficult it was, because I have been around babies and kids most of my life. I had younger family members who were always around, I babysat and worked in daycares, caring for children was not a new concept for me.

I felt confused because we tried to get pregnant and had a few miscarriages on that journey, so here I was with this tiny miracle baby yet instead of feeling happy I was just overcome with fear and dread. I know this isn’t everyone’s journey, but I know I know I’m not the only person who feels this way, and I didn’t feel like I had anyone I could talk to about it.

It took almost a year for me to get diagnosed and get into treatment for my postpartum anxiety (postpartum OCD to be exact). In that time being a mother became a nightmare for me. I had stopped sleeping and refused to be alone or leave anyone alone with Little Bug by the time I finally found the help I needed.

I still struggle. Not daily sometimes not even for weeks, but occasionally, I’ll forget my medicine or the stars align just right, and I can’t see the joy in having such a curious little girl. Instead I feel afraid for her to trip and hit her head, or fall out of a window, or just that I’m completely failing her and ruining her life. One of the ways I work to keep those false intrusive thoughts at bay is to find the humor and joy in our everyday, and when I can’t do that I have resources and a village to help me.

It was so difficult for me to find things to help me wade through my anxieties, and to help those around me understand what I was going through. I want Meh Mom Blog to be a place for light heartedness, understanding, and have resources for parents who are struggling and feeling alone right now.

If you’re looking for help, or more resources I strongly recommend Postpartum Support International


Comments

  1. Nadene says:

    Loneliness is an all too familiar part of my early parenting journey. Although I didn’t experience PND the lonleiness of it all was unexpected. I guess I’d never really considered how much social activity I had in my day to day life that suddenly halted.

    1. admin says:

      I think loneliness is a new feeling all parents go through. Especially being a stay at home mom being around the baby all day I didn’t really want to be around people, but I was so lonely for adult conversation.

  2. Kim says:

    Thanks for sharing your journey with us. It can be so difficult and especially when you feel isolated.

  3. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I also write to help others feel that they are NOT alone. Thank you for sharing.

    1. admin says:

      Thank you for your kind words.

  4. Safia says:

    Your story is inspirational and you are an amazing person and mom! Thank you so much for sharing this post with us and remember you are never alone.

    1. admin says:

      Thank you for this, and I know now I never had to be alone.

  5. Shell says:

    It is very brave fir yiu to open up about something so personal and I’m sure through that you will help others.

    1. admin says:

      Thank you. If I can make one other person feel less alone it’s worth it.

  6. Devi says:

    Your post is so inspiring .. Thanks for sharing ! Keep Inspiring

    1. admin says:

      Thank you so much. I truly appreciate it.

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